TRUE LOVE WAITS.

-unknown

Dear: Pineapple

It has been a while since i decided to write about you. Mainly because I was happy in a new relationship, well kind of. I met this amazing guy. He made me happy for a while. He asked me out as the clock stoke 12 at midnight , into the new year. He made me excited to be in love again. Almost 2 years after our break up I decided to date again. Not because I didn't want to date but because the right guy was never there. Our relationship lasted less than 2 months ,weird huh?, considering ours lasted almost 3 years. He is a genuine guy there was just something missing that I could not explain and nor could he. He broke up with me about 3 days before valentines day ironically his birthday is the same day. There were no hard feelings involved we both knew it was for the best. We still consider each other friends and I like it this way.

I kept wracking my brain trying to figure out what was missing. And then I realized that  my heart was just not ready to completely love again. I still miss you and think about you all the time. There were many reasons for me to be angry but yet I sit here typing and thinking that things were meant to be this way. You are engaged now , so young , I still cannot completely believe it. I'm happy that you are happy and that you found your missing piece, I hope she treats you well. If ever you taught me anything it would be that love never fails.

2 years down the line and I still love you as much as ever . I still pray that God looks after you and helps you achieve the things you want to. Just because you love someone does not mean that you were meant to be together. True love is praying that you are happy no matter what.Even though I may not be apart of that happiness. Babe you brought me joy, love and happiness and I wish nothing more for you.

Peace

-SL

NOTHING IS CONSTANT

Dear: Life

It only took you a day to turn my life upside down. All in the period of a month you gave me hope that Love exists even after a heartbreak. But after my month of happiness ended you reminded me that nothing is constant. People come and go all the time. People fall in love and fall out of love. People make promises and break them just as easily. I have loved and I have lost but never have I given up hope of a better tomorrow . Because we all know that it only takes a day. A day to turn your life upside down but also a day of better tomorrows, uncontrollable happiness and lots of peace and joy within. So I will be waiting on you tomorrow and the next day and the next.

Yours sincerely
Bruised but not broken

WRONG TIMING.

unknown

New Years Eve:
That's when we met. And it was cliche. And it was reckless. And it was.... amazing.

I took hold of his hand and that was it, something inside me clicked. The way his eyes met mine, and his butterfly stirring smile was enough to make my knees weak, and once he kissed me I knew I was done.

We kept in touch everyday after that night, and he even came and visited me this past weekend. I was so incredibly nervous for him to come, but the moment I opened my door he took me into his arms and kissed me, and all my nerves disappeared. We had an amazing weekend, drinking, laughing, laying in bed until 2 in the afternoon, and exchanging stories about our lives. But sadly it had to end, and he had to leave. And that's where this real life fairy tale falls short.

Where do we go from here? I have an extra year of school left, and he is moving across the country. He said I should come visit, but who knows when I will be able to. He admitted to being disappointed about our "bad timing." Which is exactly what this is....horrible timing. I want to know where this could go, it's like I need to know what could happen in this story, but I am being forced to wait, and it is driving me insane. Not knowing when I will see him again breaks my heart, and it makes me feel crazy because I barely know him, but I don't care, all I know is that I want to know more and more about him, I want to spend more time with him and figure this out. It's like I have taken a drug and I will soon need my next fix, but I will be unable to get it, and that literally makes me feel sick.

There is a part of me that regrets letting this grow after New Years, why did we have to continue to talk? Why did I invite him to come stay with me. Why did he actually come? Why? Why? Why?

Because we both couldn't shake the feeling that there is something strong between us...so what happens next? We didn't make plans, we decided to wing it, but I hate that. I hate that we left it so open...

IF IT'S MEANT TO BE...

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FIND SOMEONE WHO...

kushandwisdom

THE REST IS STILL UNWRITTEN.

unknown

I have thought about it many times.
Perhaps mostly because everyone besides myself seems to wonder when I'm going to find someone new. But I don't let it get to me. I'm not looking for someone new. I'm far from ready and I don't want to be in a relationship. I just started to let go of my previous one.

There is a time for everything, and now is my time to heal. To grow strong and be whole in myself. Learn to live with myself, my scars and my memories. Learn how to always feel safe within and not let that one single frightened voice in my head (the ego) stop me from having an open heart and dare to love unlimited.

What has been, has been. What is now is now. The rest is still unwritten.

-unknown

WE WERE PERFECT.

kushandwisdom

I had just found out my boyfriend of 2 years cheated on me when I was on vacation. I came home only to find heartbreak, but then you appeared.

You had always been there, just kinda in the corner, and I never gave you much thought. But now, suddenly you were the one person who could get me out of the mess I had fallen into. Talking to you became the best part of my day, and I began to forget what life was like without you. Then your girlfriend broke up with you, and suddenly I realized I loved you.

A month passed, finally that fateful August night we went on our first official date, and after that night you were mine. We never skipped a beat, there was never that awkward first phase. I remember when you asked and I said yes, and you said, "No way." As if you thought you didn't have a chance.

The fall came, every day got better and better. You told me you loved me when we were laying on the couch. You were shy, but I wanted to say it too. We each drew the letters on eachothers arms. I drew an "I" you drew a "L" I drew an "O." And thats how we said it, together. I was in over my head.

For christmas, we went to New York. We waited in line for two hours to go ice skating, but it was all worth it. You told me you already knew how you were going to propose, you had our life planned. Later that night, we went to Central Park, you shyly gave me a bracelet with our initials engraved in a heart. It was the sweetest gift I have ever received.

The months were going by, but all I could focus on was you. You were my world, you were absolutely everything. You would sing to me, and write me notes. When you held me, I didn't want to be anywhere else. You called me perfect, and I told you that you were wrong. But I loved every second. I loved you, I adored you with all my heart. It took everything to learn how to trust again, but you brought me back to life. I owe you everything for that.

April came, prom was around the corner. I remember every second of that Saturday night in excruciating detail. I went to your house, we went down to the basement. You put in a movie and we laid down on the futon. You told me about your dad. I cried in fear of losing you, of you getting hurt again. I held on to you and said I couldn't imagine my life without you. How could I not have known that that night was our last one? If I knew, I would have held tighter, and begged you not to leave. I wouldn't have left if I knew.

That week you went out west to visit a college. That Thursday was 8 months. The entire week, you told me you missed me, you loved me, you couldn't wait to come home to see me again.

Friday. You changed your status on Facebook to single. I became frantic, calling you, thinking it was a mistake or some silly joke. We were so good. So so so good. There would be no reason to lose us. To take everything we built together and throw it away.
But it wasn't a mistake. You said "I just want to be single."

That's it. That's the explanation I got. There was no more, no less. You told me I had nothing to do with it, how could I not have everything to do with it. You just want to be single, you don't want me. You don't want us.

But we were perfect. I can't get over you, I miss you. My heart breaks every time I think about you.

I dream about you, just to wake up to realize you're gone.

I still love you.

Why did you have to absolutely destroy me.